If you watched American Idol this week you know that it was Mariah Carey week. And let me tell you that girl can sing!!
Through out the years I’ve been a fan of her songs – some not even knowing that it was her singing. Those were mainly when I was younger and didn’t know who was singing the song unless it was Britney Spears (Don’t worry, I don’t like her anymore. Haven’t in a long time) or the Backstreet Boys or *N-sync.
So after I was reminded of the good songs she sings, I went and listened to her new album on iTunes. Found a few good songs that I absolutely love.
First off was Bye Bye, which is the song she sang on Wednesday night. This song speaks so much to me. A lot of it says the same things that I have felt over the few years since I lost my grandfather. If you know me he was very important to me and was more of a dad to me then I’d ever known then.
There are a few lyrics that just get me every time: “And you never got a chance to see how good I’ve done, And you never got to see me back at number one, I wish that you were here to celebrate together, I wish that we could spend the holidays together.”
The one thing I always wished I could have told him is that he inspired me to become a writer and entertain people just like he did through out his life. He loved to tell stories and jokes to you, no matter if you had heard them a hundred times before.
And of course the spending holidays together was always so much fun. I love the holidays so much. It’s so much fun to spend time with family and it’s never really been the same since he left us. But that doesn’t mean we haven’t had some great times since then. We just miss him.
However I know he is watching from above and is proud of me. And I hope to keep on making him proud.
And something I know he’d be proud of is that recently I’ve decided to transfer to a small Christian college close by and begin studying the field of youth ministry. God has been pulling me in that direction and I finally took notice and am doing something about it.
I think the youth ministry will go very nicely with my novel writing. At least I hope it will. I know my knowledge of the bible will grow and I’ll be able to translate that into my work so that is a major plus and I’m very excited about that.
Not growing up in a Christian/Church family I never really learned a lot about the bible – except for the many times I went to church with both grandparents or the few years of attending a Christian school – and that has always intimidated me when it comes to writing Christian themes.
Of course now I’m a little intimidated about going to a Christian college, but I’m really excited that God has pushed me to take this step and further my study of His will and word.
So all in all I think my grandfather would be proud of what I’ve accomplished so far in my life. Even though he never got a chance to see me back at number one, I still plan on continuing to make him proud.
Bye Bye – Mariah Carey
This is for my people who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We won’t ever say bye (no no no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends, and cousins
This is for my people who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we won’t ever say bye
As a child, there were them times
I didn’t get it, but you kept me alive
I didn’t know why you didn’t show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings
But I’m glad we talked through
All them grown full things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me, and obviously
There’s so much more left to say
If you were with me today, face to face
Never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
Wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And its true that you’ve reached a better place
Still, I’d give the world to see your face
And be back here next to you
But it’s like you’ve gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do
Is say bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
And you never got a chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thougt you were so strong you’d make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever
Never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
Wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And its true that you’ve reached a better place
Still, I’d give the world to see your face
And be back here next to you
But it’s like you’ve gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do
Is say bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
This is for my people who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
Cause we won’t ever say bye (no no no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends, and cousins
This is for my people who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we won’t ever say bye bye
Never knew I could hurt like this
I never knew it
Every day of my life
I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish
That as time goes by
And it’s true that you’ve reached a better place
Still I’d give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
And the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
It’s hard to say bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
So come on somebody sing it with me, wave your hands up high
Cause this is for my people who just lost somebody
This is for everybody
Who kept their head to the sky
Cause we won’t ever say bye bye